| May. 31st, 2005 @ 06:39 pm hey.. |
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Current Mood:  depressed
Current Music: eh...idk sad stuff
wow i really havent updated in a long time!!! well yay i am now. i prolley wont b able 2 4 ever again but yeah...alot has happened...um yeah me and Alex went out and 2 bad i couldnt update during THAT time which ended 2 day...omg im so crushed man. ive really been in 2 him 4 about 6 months and we only went out a week....grrr. i really love him AlOT and man gettin over him (well...trying at least) is gunna SUCK....not much 2 talk about on a happy note..uh yeah. it just sux. i was like the happiest person ALIVE in the whole damn WORLD...and now im the most depressed, confused, angry, low self asteemed person. like ive been saying all day, its amazing how much power ONE person can have and hold in the palm of their hand, over another persons emotions. he held my heart in his hands and he just...UGH threw it on the fn ground and jumped on it a ZILLION times. im SO sick of wasting all my tears and time mourning over him and GRRR i hate being depressed. but no one understands...i really love and care about him Alot i cant help it. >:| omg i hate him so much 4 making me love him so much...i really need 2 4get bout him and MOVE ON but its really not that easy ive never loved a guy this much and it was so awesome 2 b that happy....well yeah im done cya guys and sry if im sad and outta it..i kno how much u guys hate it when im not the fun hyper sarah but the sad tearful sarah. ill try 2 b happy..hopefully i do a good job at faking...btw if any 1 wants 2 hang out this summer woot lets do so!! call me!! Love always and 4ever, xoxo Shaiye p.s. thank u 2 the ppl who say they r here 4 me and love me and will comfort me thru this...i live cuz of u!! i love you guys!! |